BEYOND - A new collection of tunes by A SICKNESS UNTO DEATH
BEYOND
Beyond is a staircase that goes neither up nor down, just beyond.
Beyond is a type of death we are moving through on a path of transformation in which we welcome the other.
Beyond is a life in sadness, openness, nothingness.
Beyond is a sound not carved into the boundaries of tapes, tracks and files but carved right into the heart and soul of one.
Beyond is a new collection of tunes by A SICKNESS UNTO DEATH
CREDITS
Music: Michael Maas | Tim Ziegeler
Lyrics: Tim Ziegeler
Recorded 2017 - 2018
produced and mastered
by Michael Maas at REFUGE studio Lilienthal
LYRICS and song infos
Thresholds
Music: Maas/Ziegeler | Lyrics: Ziegeler
And I know
Things will be different from now
Standing here, days turn to fall
From the inside looking out
Though a fogging window I behold
Shadows cloaking the ground
To cover our memories and doubts
And end this small seed of hope
That we struggle to build on our own
And I know
With summer gone I could not hold
You and your everlasting grace for my soul
And your hand so strong on my cheek
And the shelter of your embrace
And I know
As nights grew cold so did our hearts
Like branches forsaking their bloom
Casting dead leaves to the ground
And I still see you slipping into the unknown
And I know as they said by little chance it meant no
Faith is reversible, time isn’t though
Hope becomes a burden now
Like a floating weight holding us down
And I know it wasn’t worth the try
But it felt so wrong not to hope
You could stay with me, come back to me
You’d intervene, destroy our fears
Restore our years
And I know, maybe mostly means to
When we’re exposed unto this grace unknown
I cannot follow you where you go
This road you must pass on our own
But It tore my soul apart
And lost my faith that day
Till there’s something left, a trembling scale, a desperate wish
The answer always was and will always be: No
And I know,
Though your shadow vanished days ago
I still stare at the edge of this glow
Sobered and alone
And I know
From rotten leaves new life will grow
Like a heritage echoing forth
Your words like a promise still glowin'
Keeping me going
Floods
Music: Maas/Ziegeler | Lyrics: Ziegeler
I have been crowned again
Crowned with despair and shame
I’ve lost my mind
I’ve lost my sight
I’ve lost what once was home
Again I've lost it all
Again the siren’s call
Again I’m dancing to the anthem of my grieving soul
Again the rain has come
Again all hope is gone
And again you’re here with me
Into the dark you called me
The place our souls are free
Here where the floods arise
I can be at your side
These waves will ease your pain
Wash away the remains
Close your eyes
Hold your breath
Take this dive
And here we are again
On this shore of pain again
And still I trust in you
The tide will fall for us again
In sorrow we will stand
And still I trust in you
Our eyes are filled with fear again
And I will grasp your hand
And still I trust in you
The floods are calling us again
These wounds we cannot mend
And still I trust in you
My friend
Again our knees give in
Again we bleed and sink
Again like blades the rain is grazing our freezing skin
Again your words they calm
Again they keep me warm
And again you’re here with me
Unto this shore I called you
I searched these floods for you
Here where despair resides
Where dreamers feel alive
I’ll stay within your arms
Until this night is through
In this floods there is darkness
There is death
And there is you
We conquered these floods
We conquered ourselves
Of Nothingness And You
Music: Maas/Ziegeler | Lyrics: Ziegeler
Waiting for another sunset
Tired and distressed
My mind is full of void
Of nothingness and you
Staring at the ceiling
Sleep denies his grace
To cover me with darkness
Before despair ensnares my mind
To hope is what they tell me
Believe me this I do
For better gods to bless my sin
For better drugs to numb my head
And for a blackout from within
And I don’t need your knife
To make me feel in pain
I reject
It’s all within,
The fear, the grief
And the memory of your name
As I drift into despair
In this wakeful nightmare
My mind it bursts with hate
Stomach compensates
I hate you
I worship you
I grieve for you
I sense your tears
I strike your fears
I wake for you
I lie blandly in this haste
Fueled by sleeplessness and rage
As you overload my brain
With nothingness and you
And they say it’s all for show
But I’m the one exposed
And tell me how to end this game
When I’m the one that’s played
Why do you rape my mind with sorrow and despair
But never speak to me
Innuendo
Music: Maas/Ziegeler | Lyrics: Ziegeler
He woke up that day
With the urge to make a change
He was searching for words
Mindful words
To get out of this cage
And then he whispered no
Just one word to to let her know
He would rather be left alone
Without a sound he whispered No
So implied and so unsure
Leaving options open for his own
Between cowardice and courage
The adventure the assured
The path was getting narrow
Leaving no space for two
And so he whispered no
Two letters to let her know
He would rather be left alone
Constantly he repeated No
So implied, so unassured
Staking claims, gaining control
From manic heights he hit the ground
A last attempt to turn around
He found himself like in a fall
So afraid to lose it after all
You are not the only one
On this path you're stumbling on
Is this decision only yours
Oh how I just don’t don’t know
Are you afraid to lose her
I just cannot let her...
And finally she responded No
With a voice so self-assured
She would rather be left alone
She took her chance and stated No
She took over control
And left him trapped
All on his own
Destroyed
Music: Ziegeler/Maas | Lyrics: Ziegeler
So here it comes my argument
I know you may not understand
Why I prefer to be erased
From this life I feel misplaced
Don’t get me wrong I won’t fade
Cause I don’t want to be bewailed
Or hurt the ones I care for now
And leave them here all alone
What I want is to not exist
To be erased right from your list
What I want is to be destroyed
Return unto the endless void
No sign that I was ever born
When I am dead no one to mourn
Forgotten now I want to be
Wiped out my identity
You say my words may be absurd
And even tell my songs they hurt
Life is a blessing we receive
But sadly I cannot believe
My pain is of the knowing why
Anxiety I can’t deny
My conscience got to know the truth
Therefore I have no excuse
I signed a contract full of fraud
Forever now will I be caught
Boncealed the terms it’s all about
This hellfire I can’t opt out
In earthly joy I won’t delight
And death is just a shocking fright
A candle burning from both ends
For my sin there’s no amends
You say my words are so insane
But they told me me, who am I to blame
A gospel better not to be heard
Good news leaving you disturbed
I live under the floating rage
Impenitent inside this cage
My saviour I forsake your path
Ready to receive your wrath
And I don’t want life eternally
And I don’t want to cut and bleed
And I know death can’t set me free
And Nothingness is what I seek
A Night To Remember
Music: Maas/Ziegeler | Lyrics: Ziegeler
And here it comes [Again]
And here it feels [The same]
And here it grows [Within]
And here I am [My friend]
I am captured [By sedatives]
I am awake [I'm asleep]
I am important [Like I behave]
I am betrayed [By myself]
I am obsessed [By my guilt]
I am scorned [By my sin]
I am forgotten
Within a night to remember
I am the night to remember
And then the black screen turns bright
And then these pictures appear
With a shivering tone
To shake this cosmos of fear
Dead bodies I see
Perfectly fashioned
And I try to feel sorry
But they won’t trigger compassion
I am lacking the skills
To bury my own dead
I don’t care for your thrills
Make me forget my despair
And these disasters I see
And the news that you feed
So cold they leave me
Just entertaining the beat
Of my heart so afraid
It all accumulates
In this endless November
In this night to remember
Tonight it's all within me
The war that I see
Contaminated my brains
With toxic wastes
1004 square miles of death
A million more in my heart
And like the ruins you’ve left
I feel I’m falling apart
Tonight it's all within me
The voices I hear
I am saturated
Beyond belief
This is no memory
This is a sorrow assembler
Crossing my mind in this night to remember
Meet me in the prime of my temper
Meet me in this night to remember
Save me from this sorrow why can't ya
Save me from this night to remember
I am lost
my faith
my self
Beyond
Music: Maas/Ziegeler | Lyrics: Ziegeler
Everyday’s another threat
You say it's only in my head
Now you see my tranquilized
A raging monster hypnotized
I used to key up towards insanity
Now I’m heading for indifference
Everything was all-important
Now everything‘s absurd
And all the world that haunted me
It needled me, and turned its back on me
And those voices that approached me
In this silence they left me here
And every night you fall asleep
Thoughts break loose, I can no longer keep
I see your face so full of confidence
And I am anxious it’s in vain
You are weary
I am numbed
You take your chances
While I take my pills
You know sadness
I know despair
And You compare
How do you dare
You say someday I’ll feel again
Oh add this pressure to my pain
These chemicals inside my veins
They may impress you but not my brains
And every night you fall asleep
Thoughts break loose, I can no longer keep
I see your face so full of confidence
And I am anxious it’s in vain
You are weary
I am numbed
You take your chances
While I take my pills
You know sadness
I know despair
And You compare
How do you dare to.
And I don’t fear what’s in the past
And I don’t fear what is to come
This enemy is so temporary
And so ridiculous
And he’s always here
Save me
I’m drowning in despair
Believe in me
I’m frozen to myself
Trust me
It’s just acids in my head
And Stay with me
Beyond this misery
Strangers
Music: De Yta / Maas / Ziegeler | Lyrics: Ziegeler
And in this eerie chamber
Where light and mercy flee
There is no great escape
There's only them and me
Their chanting getting louder
Hunting for my soul again
A funeral procession
I know I'm easy prey
And now it's getting closer
I’m paralized by fear
And I’m beyond redemption
I feel my time is here
And now your hand won’t reach me
And now I’ve come too far
I feel their comdemnation
And slowly I’m posessed by
Their hands
Their eyes
Their tongues
Their might
Their cold
Their shame
Their rope
Their lies
Their knife
Their hate
Their grief
Their chains
Their drugs are running through my veins
Their sorrow
Their decree remains
I am cursed by these strangers
Gatherering inside my head
Their fingers point
And I agree
Their staring eyes
I know it's time
As they accuse
And I confess
I know something needs to die
And now their lies ensnare me
Blaring inside my head
I’m seized by desperation
And I’m forced to obey
There's no determination
There's only destiny
My time has come to end it
No more to be plagued by
Their hands
Their eyes
Their tongues
Their might
Their cold
Their shame
Their rope
Their lies
Their knife
Their hate
Their grief
Their chains
Their lies are yelling through my brains
Their scars
Their thorns
Their mask
Their scent
Their dark
Their book
Their teeth
Their end
Their blade
Their scorn
Their force
Their nails
Their poison running through my veins
Their sorrow
Their decree remains
I am cursed by these strangers
Gatherering inside my head
Their fingers point
And I agree
Their staring eyes
I know it’s time
As they accuse
And I confess
I know something needs to die
And it's not me
Alright
Music: Maas/Ziegeler | Lyrics: Ziegeler
Good to know you are alright
Yes so am I tonight
So why would I tell you
How darkness clouds my mind
From time to time
And why would I tell you
Of fears that surround me in the night
And of the dreams I laid aside
And of the scars I hide
I carefully hide
Why would I do this
Why would I do this to you
And why would you take your time and listen for a while
And it wouldnt feel so awkward as I would start to cry
Cause I could find your comfort and solace in your arms
And you would share my sorrow and you would cry with me
And our tears would build an ocean where we drown our fears
So why would I do this
Why should I let you know
Why should I tell you?
And I would sit beside you
And open up my mind
For the memories that haunt you
And the loneliness inside
And when you say, we all wander through darkness
I can’t deny that you are right
But I deny that you are forced to go alone
And I am on your side
But why should I tell you
Why would I let you know
Why should I do this?
So why should I
Tell you that I cherish you
And you make me feel alive
And the scars you wear are window to your soul
To flood your life with light
And we could share each other's company
And the silence wouldn’t hurt
And from weakness blossoms empathy
The real therapy
And when sorrow overcomes me
self hatred setting in
I could feel your strength inside me
Sending shivers down my skin
And we could dance upon our grief
Till the sun ascends the dawn
In the gloomy morning light
We would be alright
Just like you are tonight
See you next time
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Michael Maas
Guitars | Bass | Piano | Synthesizers
Tim Ziegeler
Vocals | Soundscapes | Keyboards
Antonio De Yta
Guitars
Additional musicians:
Jan Asmus Wächter (Drums)
Daniel Touey (Philosopher's voice)
Back Catalogue
Studio albums
BEYOND (2018)
Independend Digital Release Only
Produced by Michael Maas
01 Thresholds
02 Floods
03 Of Nothingness And You
04 Innuendo
05 Destroyed
06 A Night To Remember
07 Beyond
08 Strangers
09 Alright
THE GREAT ESCAPE (2015)
Source Of Deluge Records
Produced by Michael Maas | Mastered by Jens Bogren
01 The Great Escape
02 Intoxicated
03 The Atonement Ship
04 Lost
05 The Concrete Lake
06 The Uniqueness of Two
07 Prejudice
08 Judgement
09 Purgatory
10 Remains of Misery
DESPAIR (2013)
Source Of Deluge Records
Produced by Michael Maas
01 Zub Zero
02 Epic Fail
03 Rain Of Chards
04 Goddess In Dust
05 Gallow's Tree Thy Name
06 Despair
07 Ghost Light Dawn
08 Ruined
09 Flames Leap High
Live Video
THE CINEMA CONCERT (LIVE VIDEO) (2016)
Produced by Michael Maas | Tim Ziegeler
01 INTRO
02 THE GREAT ESCAPE
03 INTOXICATED
04 GODDESS IN DUST
05 THE UNIQUENESS OF TWO
06 GHOST LIGHT DAWN
07 PURGATORY
08 RAIN OF SHARDS
09 FLAMES LEAP HIGH
10 EPIC FAIL
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